Epiphany

Today was emotionally exhausting in a way. Ive wanted to go see my mom at the cemetery for a week now, but when I woke up this morning I knew this would be the day that I was going to go. The drive there gave me plenty of time to think (as if I don't over think things enough already).I have been feeling kinda of different lately like kind of up in arms with how things in my life actually are right now. I get to the cemetery and make the walk to her plot and almost immediately after I see her tombstone the tears start coming out. This is where the epiphany kicks in as Im standing over her grave I start thinking about all stuff I've endured in my life and realized that I've been through so much in the past 30 years, but in the end I've always ended up succeeding, and look I'm still here. When I was born the doctors told my parents that there was a large chance I wouldnt live to be two years old....When I was in 8th grade I was diagnosed with a type of cancer that was unknown to be carried by children....Then almost 4 years ago I lost my mom to cancer even though I still miss her everyday I've been able to carry on...All these things could have killed me...but guess what? They didn't and now that I have realized that I'm going to take steps to try and remember this on a daily basis.